I Feel Old

I haven't updated this blog in a while. I know, I say that every time I come back to this thing. The truth of the matter is, I haven't had much time. All summer, I was home with the kids. We did a lot this summer. My Aunt Carol visited for the month of June and she's really into getting out and doing stuff, so it forced me to get out more. We took the girls to the playground more often. I also got a Fitbit to count my steps.

Then last month I decided to become a vegan. I was a vegetarian on and off through my teen years and 20s. I didn't have the right kind of discipline, or money, to keep it up. And when others around you are all "How can you give up fried chicken?", it was easy for me to go back to meat. It's not going to happen this time.

I'll try to update this blog more often now that the girls are back in school. Anneka is in 3rd grade and the twins are in 1st grade. And I feel old.

My new short comedy

Hi gang,

I made this short comedy with my daughters, Anneka, Mia & Laila. It was based on the fact that kids ask a LOT of questions. Sometimes my Anneka asks these really crazy, but cute questions. A year ago, I made a similar film entitled "Kid Questions", but decided to make a new one last week with real questions she's asked me over time.

I directed it, and this time I'm not in it at all, not even my voice. All I did was told her what to ask, and took several takes, using my iPhone 6 and then edited it on my MacBook Pro using iMovie. It's super short, but if you like, leave a comment, like the video on Youtube, all that good stuff! Hope you like it! Watch for my twin girls cheering at the end!


"Too Many Questions":

(c) Scenestealer Productions

The Power of Great Friends

I had an off day yesterday. I started beating myself up over everything that's been going wrong. Keep in mind, nothing huge is going wrong. I know how blessed I am to have the life that I have with the people that surround me. I am grateful. But don't you just have those days where everything bothers you?

Sometimes, I get this feeling of doom and just think 'It's probably better if I just stay in bed'. Most days, I'm okay, truthfully. I don't sweat the small stuff and things just roll right off of me. Maybe it's because of the small kitchen fire that happened this past Sunday that I can't stop blaming myself for or the fact that I scratched the back of the van after pulling out of our parking spot. Keep in mind, I've cooked probably thousands of times on this stove in the 3 years since we've lived here and I've never severely burned food or caught the stove on fire. The one time I do it, I think "I'm never cooking again, that's it!" I know it sounds silly and I'm probably too old to have these thoughts and have this approach to life. I should know better. I probably shouldn't be beating myself up over putting another little scratch on the van, considering it's little and at least I didn't hit anybody or another car.

Today, things are looking a bit clearer. Yesterday all I could think was "I suck, what a terrible week!". Then I ran into Luisa, my friend who I have way too much in common with, including the same amount of daughters, and she made me feel better. She looked at the damage and pretty much kept me from crying, reminding me that it wasn't a big deal. Then I spent a while texting with Laura, another really good friend who has been there for me before when I needed support.

I try not to be one of those people who feel the need to tell everyone when I'm having a shitty day. But every now and then, you need to vent to people other than your husband. Every now and then, you need good, supportive friends who are going to say to you "It's okay, it's no big deal, you'll be fine." It's always so comforting talking to my two best friends, Luisa and Laura. They're two of the kindest, smartest people I've ever known. I'm very thankful for them also.

So in hindsight, I guess I'm doing much better today. I threw myself a little pitty party yesterday (with a few tears) and then picked myself back up. Besides, who has time to wallow in unnecessary sadness? I have to go grocery shopping, load the dishwasher then pick up the girls from school! I also have to find time for a workout today, but that's another post for another day.

Productive Days

So I'm back on track and I have a long list of things to do. In my last post, I talked about distractions and how I was used to working with them in the background. Perhaps I work better under pressure? I do remember back in school when I'd have a test the next day, I'd always forget up until the last minute, then I'd be up at 11 o'clock at night, cramming for it. I always aced it! I just always put off things, and sometimes important things.

Me, hugging Mia while listening to Laila

I've been utilizing my iphone more lately for things it can actually do, besides playing games and Tweeting. I've been using the alarm clock, calendar and notepad. Don't ask why I never really used them before. Maybe because I didn't have super important business before? Now that the kids are in school, I can concentrate on the things I need to do in the house and outside of it. I'm also working really hard on my career, keeping up with auditions, meeting with an acting coach, etc.

Anneka, Laila & Mia

I can't exactly say things are running smoothly. Last week I got the girls to school late for the first time. A whole 15 minutes late! It's strange because I'm always on time! Doctor's appointments, auditions, meeting up with friends, etc. I'm ALWAYS on time. Or early. Actually, I'm usually super early. I've gone to auditions and job interviews with time to kill. I just love being prepared and I hate rushing. I'll try my best not to take them to school late again. Of course, that was a special circumstance because usually Bry helps me get them up in the mornings and we all leave about the same time, with him heading to work. That one particular day, Bry was out of town, taking care of business in Chicago. I barely slept a wink that night before. It was a mixture of Laila's coughing in her sleep, not used to sleeping alone and worrying about my husband being on an airplane.

I was alright, of course. He wasn't gone for long and I got decent sleep the next night. Hooray for me!

Anneka, before school this morning.

I still have things to do tonight, getting the girls' snacks prepared for school tomorrow. I really need to start going to bed earlier so I can have a more productive day. Or maybe I'm being too hard on myself. As of late, I've had a lot of productive days.

Me

My Therapist Says...

I had this plan to try to blog everyday once the girls were in school, but things don't always go as planned. They are now in their third week of school and this is the first blog I've posted in forever. It's been at least a month since I even looked at this thing. But in my defense, a lot has been going on.

By a "a lot", I really mean "not much". I know. I just contradicted myself. It feels like nothing's been going on, I mean. No job, nothing exciting. I'm not doing any stand-up and tv show appearances. I haven't been on Inside Edition in over a month. Not that they don't want to use me or anything, it's just they haven't needed commentary on certain news stories, except one day last week. They called, but I had such a sore throat that my speaking voice wasn't normal. I was barely squeaking out words so I had to turn them down.

The first week of school, I was a little depressed. My twins started kindergarten and Ani started 2nd grade. It was just a reminder that they are growing up and there was nothing I can do about it. At least when Ani started kindergarten, I had the twins to focus on. Now, no one's at home for me to focus on. Except for me.

I started seeing a therapist. She wants me to focus on me. I'm so used to putting other people first, I've forgotten what I wanted. I've forgotten what I came out here to do before it's too late. Honestly, I never expected to be a mom, but I certainly never saw myself as this over-obsessive "helicopter" parent. I drop them off at school, then stand outside of the gate watching them in their respective lines. I dress all three of them alike everyday. I'm overly worried about if the twins are making friends and if their teacher is paying attention to them.

Focus on me? That's kind of a joke, right? Yes, I now have hours in the day where I can have a full thought uninterrupted, but what else am I supposed to be doing? I've been making money by Tweeting for major brands. I buy stuff cheap then sell them on eBay for profit. That's my business. That's what I've been doing to bring extra money into the house. But I haven't done stand-up in months, I haven't been on any auditions, and I haven't even been keeping up with this blog.

My therapist says I'm too hard on myself. She's right, I know. I put a lot of pressure on myself to do certain things and if I don't succeed, I kick myself when I'm down. This week I've felt much better about things. Last week I was sick and kept the girls home a few days because they were sick too. I spent those days laying around, taking medicine and eating very little. I lost a few pounds. This week, I'm reassessing and making myself "do". I have all of this time to do what I moved my family out here to do. And there's this voice in the back of my head that's sing-songing "Don't screw it  upppp". Well I'm telling that voice to FUCK OFF.

Was this entire post one big, long ramble? See...I'm still being too hard on myself. Don't tell my therapist.

Things I'm Obsessed With Right Now - 7/14

Things I'm Obsessed With Right Now
July 2014 Edition

So July is almost over, and I promise I'll try to make these lists more often, because everyone wants to know what I like, right? What? Anyone? Anyone? Whatever, I'm doing it anyway because these are FUN!

Now, I'm a mom of 3 little girls, but I have to admit, I really like kid's movies myself! I loved Frozen, but I really usually like any Disney movie, generally. My girls got really crazy over Rio when it first came out years ago, and now Rio 2 is out and I can't wait to see it!

In the meantime, I'm finding it really hard to find Frozen merchandise! What's up with that? Was Disney not aware that we'd like to buy our little girls Elsa shirts and Anna dolls and things of that sort? And if they were aware, why are the toys and clothes so scarce?! I don't know. The movie came out over a year ago at the movies! Get it together Disney!

Recently, I needed a new phone. I had the white iPhone 5, but it was a 16 GB which was a HUGE mistake! I mean, only 16GB? I learned my lesson! There's way too many things I do on my phone to have such little space. Ask my kids, I'm usually always taking pictures or filming something! Along with the all of the pics and videos, I also needed space for all of my apps, as I do a lot of social networking. Now that I'm back to using Vine, I use Foursquare from time to time, I need Yelp on my phone at all times and of course, Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, etc. It was time for an upgrade, so instead of spending hundreds and hundreds of dollars on the iPhone 5S with 32GB, I decided to get an iPhone 5C in pink! I downloaded every app I could ever need, got tones of pics and videos on it and still have plenty of room left for other nonsense!

I'm really into this show called Loiter Squad on Adult Swim. Let me start off by saying, I've never really listening to Tyler the Creator's music.

I know he's a rapper,  I'm aware. But also, this guy is hilarious! I even got Bry into watching it and because of the Adult Swim app (yay! I have room for that app now!), I can watch it anywhere I want, and I stream it using AirPlay in my living room using Apple TV so me and hubby can watch it!

And can we talk about what an amazing thing the Keurig is?? I have limited time in the mornings. This thing is super fast, just pop in a K-cup and your coffee is ready in under a minute. It saves so much time! I get my coffee started and I'm drinking it before a kid can say to me "Mommy, I'm hungry!"

I included the links from Amazon because people often ask me where I got certain things from. Truthfully, when you have Amazon Prime and hate shopping in stores, (especially when your three kids are along), you buy practically everything from Amazon!!! :)

Later!

Overdo It Than Under-Do It

For the last few days I've been thinking about my next moves. Yes, I'm still doing stand-up, but I'm sick of putting off what I could be doing today. I keep saying I'll do more once the twins are in school and blah blah blah. I understand that I, of course, would need someone to watch them if I'm out doing stuff during the day but I no longer want to use them as an excuse to do nothing!

So while I'm at home teaching the girls how to write their names and singing songs from Frozen, I'm planning what I need to do. I think I might try to get all three girls into a program over the summer just for a few hours a day so I have time to write and work on my act. It's very hard to even blog when every few minutes a kid needs juice or asks to play on the Kindle. I just got interrupted while making dinner reservations over the phone!

So on top of doing stand-up shows, I'm going to start shooting some comedic shorts for Youtube. I'd love to have something on Funny or Die. I wrote one that stars me and all three girls that Bry is going to shoot. It's pretty funny. We're going to shoot it next week. I'm also working on recording a song or EP as a solo artist. Not sure if I've mentioned this before, but Bry and I met years ago and started working on music as an acoustic rock duo called Strangers of Grace. This was before we were even dating. I wrote a song the other day in 10 minutes and Bry had the guitar and came up with music for it. And thank God for iPhone, because I used both mine and his to record it right then and there. I wrote the lyrics on the phone and e-mailed it to both of us. We've talked about using some of our old Strangers of Grace songs and writing new ones and then going to perform at some small club.

I think I get anxious when I'm not doing enough. Yes, I guess I can overdo it, as I have before and even lately. But I'd rather overdo it than under-do it. Does that make sense?


Here's a song we made that we never quite finished from a few years ago:

If you wanna see a few more semi-embarrassing, not-yet-finished songs we never performed live go here and here. Yeah, I say semi-embarrassing cause fuck it. Takes a lot to embarrass me. Ha!

I Almost Didn't Post This

I don't want this to be one of those "I've had a rough week" posts. Yeah, the point in this blog is to share what's going on with me, but how many times can I say "I've had a rough week" before I feel like I'm whining? Besides, at this point, I know it's just a rough week, not a rough month or year or life and I'll be fine in the end. Because I always am.

So this week, yeah, I'm not doing as much. I've been kind of laying low. It's a mixture of doubting myself (again), questioning what the hell I'm doing and being tired and not eating enough. I've never been a stress eater, I've always been a stress under-eater. I had a fall-out with a friend which I completely still don't understand, and one of my other friends hurt himself and it's really bothering me. I mean, this is someone I've known perhaps a little over a year and I don't hang out with regularly, but him being hurt is fucking with me. I feel bad, but at the same time I can't mommy-at everyone. I had a friend who lived in my building years ago back in Chicago. He was a recovering drug addict, but he was much younger than me and I treated him like a hurt puppy. He was appreciative because he lived far away from his family, but even now if I don't hear from him for a while I text him to make sure he's okay. But perhaps that's just being a caring friend, I don't know. He checked up on me when we had all of these earthquakes last month.

Sometimes I feel excluded from things because people assume I'm busy or have a full life because of the husband and kids. When Bry gets home from work, he usually takes over. Not because I ask him to, but because he wants to. He's like "I haven't seen my girls all day, I'm going to get them ready for bed". So I give him his time to help them brush their teeth, read them a story, blah blah blah. I'm bored a lot, you guys. After 5, 6 o'clock at night, I'm bored. As shit. I cook dinner, then go in the room to call my aunt. We talk for like an hour. Not every day, perhaps once or twice a week. We usually talk about everything and nothing and then talk over one another and laugh about it. She gives me advice, a lot, because I ask for it.

And yeah, I've been talking to my mom again and that's strange, as I mentioned before. We've been estranged for over a year. I'm not getting into specifics, but if you know me, you know the deal. I'm a very sensitive person, perhaps too sensitive for Hollywood, truly. I'm not depressed, because trust me, I've been down that road. I have hope and aspirations and all that good mucky muck. I have a show next week that I'm very excited for. I think really I just need a therapist. I need to talk to someone who I can vent to that's not Bry, who I guess tries to understand, but truly doesn't. He doesn't understand why I put so much pressure on myself and feel like I should be doing more. He doesn't understand the anxiety and the fear of driving. He drives all over L.A. for his work and describes the driving as "annoying" instead of "scary".

So yeah, I guess in order to survive this industry and being a mom and having a shitty upbringing, I guess I have to see a therapist or whatever. I picture some old white dude with glasses asking me "and how did that make you feel?" and over time telling me "I've had enough of your whining! I'll refund your money if you just get the hell outta here and never come back!" Haha! That's both hilarious and sad at the same time!

Doubt Me, I'll Work Harder

Me performing on stage at the Silverlake Lounge this week.

It's been a weird week.

I don't want to speak about it publicly, but something happened last week, with a friend, that's had me upset all week. But whatever, life goes on. Thankfully, my Auntie Carol flew in from Chicago last week and kept my mind occupied. I also got the offer to be in a show mid-week and that kept me busy too. Then on Thursday night, I went to the Comedy Palace show in Los Feliz to see my friend Josh Fadem perform. Good times, good times.

Me and the hilarious Josh Fadem.

I also got to see Rob Delaney perform! Josh introduced us!

But then my aunt left yesterday to go back to Chicago, and my 7 year old daughter Ani cried in the car as we were dropping her off at LAX. That made me sad. I really dislike how far we are from family. We hadn't seen her in a long time and Ani and her really bonded while she was here. Then on top of that, I was worried about my mother all week. She had to go to the ER and they kept her overnight, so I was getting updates from my aunt, and not wanting to let the girls know. No need in telling little kids that their grandmother was in the hospital. My mom is fine and they released her after tests were done. It's strange because I'm kind of estranged from my mother but I've talked to her through texts. But I let Bry, my husband know that if something went down, I'd be on the first plane back to Chicago.

I don't know. It's weird. A few things are bothering me right now, but nothing I can't handle. Things could be worse. I'm spending my time working on stand-up material. I have a show at Flappers Comedy Club in Burbank on April 24th so I'm going to hit some open mics before then to work on some new material. It's a show in the Main Room, which I've never performed in before, only the YooHoo Room.

All of that, along with the 2 doctors appointments for the kids last week (one because of Laila's nosebleeds and allergies), and then registering the twins for Kindergarten and a dental appointment for all three kids coming up this week.

And I just want to add, though I said I wouldn't speak on it publicly...a so-called friend said I wasn't dedicated to my career and it wasn't fair I was getting all the breaks. I'm not getting breaks, I'm still a nobody! I get booked for shows because I do my research, find out who's booking these, then ask questions. I show up, be funny and then leave in time to get home to my kids. To even think that I'm not taking my career seriously is stupidity on your behalf. I moved my entire family across the country, away from the safety and comfort of my entire family! I made Bry find a new job out here! He could've said hell no! I risked a lot to move out here to do this! Don't ever doubt me, it only makes me work harder.

New Look! Better Blog!

Hey guys!

So I've updated the look of my blog! What do you think? It looks better, I think. I had the same layout for about 2 years! I'm trying to get more traffic to this blog to showcase my writing and just share some of the crazier things that happens in my life.

Ever since I moved to L.A., things have been way more interesting. Actually, things have been so hectic that I forgot to mark the 2-year anniversary of us moving here! We moved from Chicago on March 7th, 2012 and we were supposed to celebrate! We didn't, and oh well, and yes, that's kind of messed up, but that's okay.

I want to start covering more ground with this blog also. I don't want to just post things about my life and what I'm doing day-to-day. I'd like to add more content, such as favorite videos, lists, funny things, stupid things, etc. I'd like to also possibly do a few interviews here and there.

I got a lot of advice from looking at other blogs and from asking friends. I'd love to do this blog full-time instead of trying to find a job outside of the home so I can be here for my kids! The twins don't start school until the fall, so in the meantime, I would just like to do something here in the comfort of my home, right next to them.

That's it for now and I will be posting on this thing more often! Later guys!

Angie xo

Time

I found out I didn't win a screenplay writing contest for my short film "Dead Oliver". But it's okay, I'm not totally disappointed. It's a little bothersome. Okay, it sucks. I don't know why I entered it to begin with, because honestly I was thinking of putting it on as a play. It takes place in a hotel room, so it would work for the stage. I still may find a theater to put it on.

I've been pretty busy with writing for HelloGiggles, doing stand-up and being a mom. I could say it's hard to find a balance, but of course anyone with kids knows that. Anyone without kids assumes it. I really wish I had more time to write, uninterrupted, and possibly do stand-up every night without having to worry about getting up so early the next morning to be with the kids. But I think, at this time, I enjoy doing stand-up every now and then. It would kill me if I didn't get to spend all this time with the twins. During the day, I have them.

In the fall, they'll be starting Kindergarten and as much as I'll like to have uninterrupted writing time, I'll miss the hell outta my twinsies. They'll go to school and make friends and get lives outside of me and that makes me kind of sad. Right now, they don't like me leaving the house without them. I'm sure they'll be fine in school, but they'll only be 4 for a few months more. I'm going to enjoy 4 year old Mia and Laila, before they're all "I wanna go to my friends house" and "Mom, I'm on the phone!" and "Mom, I can't believe you! You're so embarrassing!".

Yeah, even when they're older I'll kiss them in front of their friends. They've been warned.

Sorta Exciting updates

While I'm waiting around for something, anything to happen, I think I'm going to keep my writing sharp by writing short stories.

I used to write short stories all the time, you know, before I became a mom and started watching too much tv. And I have time to write, it's not like I'm 24/7 busy. Yes, it is tiring taking care of 3 small children, but there are times when they don't want to be bothered by me. They have each other to play with in their room full of Lalaloopsy dolls, toy dishes and play food. Did I mention that we also have every children's movie that has come out in the past 5 years on blu ray? Yeah, they don't need me 24/7. I do, however, have to listen out for "Owwww!" or "I'm not playing with you anymore!".

At night I have plenty of time to write, though I'm usually quite sleepy around 7pm. Again, I have 3 small daughters, all 3 under the age of 7!

Life has been exciting, when I do get to go out of the house. I got to meet Conan O'Brien yesterday. I was in the audience of his show and got to sit on the front row and after the show, he comes into the audience singing the "End of the show" song, which is hilarious! As he came back down the stairs, past me, he came over and shook my hand! I said "I love you!" he said "I love you too"! Then he started doing that growl thing that he does at female guests, towards ME. Best day of my life. Next to, you know, that wedding thing and the having-kids thing.

If you know me, you know what Conan means to me. I saw him live in Chicago back when I was pregnant with Anneka, almost 7 years ago at the Chicago Theater. Then, I saw him with my mom back in December while she was visiting from Chicago, then I saw the show once again less than a month ago and ran into some of the writers of the show, which was awesome.

I have several people reading my pilot "Jersey Did It", about a young woman who has too much money, but gets bored easily, and is afraid of too many things, which hinders her life. Sound familiar? Well, not the money thing...regardless, I hope I get good feedback on it!

Later Gators.

Things that are Pissing Me off right now (a numbered list)

1. I had to tell these kids 74889839849384 times to clean up their room. They're in bed now. The room is semi-clean.

2. I just killed an ant on my laptop with my own hand. I hate Southern California and it's always so warm weather. Well, not really. But I hate these fucking ants!

3. I have a wheat gluten sensitivity. I learned the hard way. My tummy hurts. Son of a bitch!

4. My phone keeps resetting. I'm not eligible for an upgrade until December 1st! Damn Sprint.

5. Bry has now worked almost 12 hours today! And he's still not home! Dammit.

6. Gas prices are over $5 a gallon! I'm selling my car and buying a horse and carriage.

7. Mia and Laila are in their room laughing loudly, while they're supposed to be asleep. I'm about to re-think my stance on spanking...I don't care what the studies show! I'm black, dammit!

8. I'm sick of the attention Jenny Johnson is getting on Twitter. Yeah, okay, she's funny. Yeah, she's wrong. Yeah, she makes me literally laugh out loud sometimes...wait...what was my point??

9. This toothache man! I'm sick of popping pain killers! I hate pills! We don't get along! I can't swallow them. Yes, I am a big baby. Shut up!

10. Did I mention the gas prices? What about the Jenny Johnson thing? Bry working so late? Uh...maybe there isn't a 10th thing to complain about...hmmm...uh....I'll get back to you.

I Didn't Cry...I Held it in!

Busy week!

My oldest daughter started Kindergarten this week. No, I didn't cry like a little baby and embarrass her. I held it in, thank you very much.

I walked her there this morning while Bry got ready for work and stayed here with the twins. Then, I drove with the twins to go pick her up this afternoon. Yes, I missed her yesterday and today.

Right now I'm trying to figure out if I should be letting the twins color at the same table while Ani does her homework.

Not a good idea. I sent them to their room to watch tv for a little bit and lay down. They didn't protest too much.

Going to go help Googa with her homework.

Laters!

Whiny Baby

It's been a rough week, between missing Bry when he's working and trying to figure out where this film should go. I don't know.
Maybe I just think too much.
Then I hurt my back, carrying around the toddlers.
But on the plus side, I've been doing a lot of activities with them, including baking cookies, painting, coloring and teaching them letters. Ani already knows her letters, so she's been helping the twins learn theirs.
Then last night we stayed up and watched the Olympics opening ceremonies. So yeah, it was a rough few days, but I'm feeling better about everything now.
I was probably just being a whiny baby. Just like I'm being a whiny baby about having to go get my wisdom teeth removed. I would rather give birth again then to have dental surgery! My God...and I really don't want to give birth again! Lol

Laters.

Fascination

Hmmm...so what am I up to...?

I'm still fundraising for "Dead Oliver". We're still in pre-production and thinking about who's going to play the role of Oliver. In the meantime, it's not too late to donate to get an IMDB credit as a producer! www.indiegogo.com/deadoliverfilm

Also, I'm trying to find a yoga or pilates class nearby. I really wanted to go to Winsor Pilates, but that's all the way in West Hollywood, which is like, 45 minutes on a good day. It's probably better to work out closer to home.

Oh, and I register Ani for kindergarten next week. I'm nervous. It's going to be really hard being away from her. She's a great kid. I'm just going to miss her during the day. She's my oldest, and yes, she's 5 and she's ready to be away from her mommy at least some of the day, but still...I'll miss her. At least the twins will still be home with me.

Oh, and I've been totally obsessing over Marilyn Monroe! Obviously, I've always known who she is, and I've seen several of her kids, mostly when I was a kid. I saw "Niagara" and "Some Like It Hot" as a kid with my mom, but more recently I've seen "The Seven Year Itch", and I just want to watch it over and over again! I'm totally obsessed! I get the fascination with her, now more than ever. Why was she that gorgeous and talented?! How was she even human? My God. Then Bry bought me the Life magazine tribute to her. I'm going to go visit her grave next week. I'm going to put flowers. God, I love her.

Oh, and don't forget to follow me on Twitter!
www.twitter.com/angelinascene

You Better Be a Comedian!

I had a great show last night! We had a pretty big crowd and I think I just vibed off of that and went for it. My lines came out more naturally I think. I loved getting laughs off of the ridiculousness I have to say! I mean, it sticks to the script of "Reservoir Dogs", and I play the Quentin Tarantino role. I start off the play. As soon as the lights go up, I start talking. Now, if you've seen the play, you know what Quentin, as Mr. Brown, says. It's pretty funny. It always gets laughs from the crowd. And then the girls, my castmates, chuckle and adlib and it makes it even funnier!

The problem is, I think I'm really going to miss doing this every Thursday once the show ends. We only have 2 more shows left! Once the show ends, I think I'm going to just concentrate on getting this screenplay made. I need a literary agent! Like, stat!

So today, I'm just spending the day with the girls, watching them play with their Barbie pools my aunt bought them. Oh, and watching "Alvin and the Chipmunks". And stealing kisses. I say to them "Are you mommy's Mia?" and Mia goes "No!", smiling. So I do sad face and then she goes "Yes!", laughing! I do that to all three of them. Each one of them always says no first, then says yes once I do sad face. What funny kids. I tell them they'd better be stand-up comedians! LOL

Where They Get this From

I'm having a pretty good week. I woke up early this morning, before hubby had to start getting ready for work, and decided to go to Intelligentsia, this nice coffee bar in Silver Lake, which is not too far from my house. I got up, went there, found parking on the street and sat there drinking my chai latte and talking to my mom about why she's afraid to move to California. Okay, I get it, the earthquakes, the wildfires the mudslides, I get it, I really do. Those things are part of the reason why I never moved here before, truthfully. But in Chicago, I was afraid to drive around! I was afraid to go into the city for auditions and for my acting classes. I still did it, but I really got to the point of being terrified of getting shot in the face. Nobody wants to get shot in the face. Not to say that it couldn't happen here, because obviously, crime happens in L.A. too, duh! It just got to a point where people I grew up with were getting killed back to back. I lost two old friends in a month period! One in December, right before Christmas, and then again in January! The gang violence just got out of control and it wasn't just in one area, it was all over. It got dangerous to go downtown. I still love Chicago, I really, I do. I love it for its beauty and I love it because of its history and because of Second City and the amazing people that have come out of there and made great things of themselves. I'm just a little afraid of getting shot in the face. That's all.

But, in hindsight, there was an earthquake here today. A relatively small one, so small I didn't feel it and wouldn't even had known about it if it wasn't for the fact that it was a top story on Yahoo. So for a few hours after reading that, I thought I felt the floor shaking. At one point, Anneka's water bottle fell off the counter and hit the floor. I jumped like "what was that?" and Ani was like "I don't know". I was like "did you feel the floor move?" and she goes "No!" looking at me, like I'm crazy.

These kids...I'm sitting here trying to write this blog, and I've had to stop like 7 times. They're supposed to be eating dinner, and I'm at the table with them, but they're clowning around. I don't know where they get this snizz from. Clownshoe babies. Everything is a joke to them. Absolutely no clue where they get this from...

Yes, this is really how they are at dinnertime. I probably should be all "Knock it off! Have better table manners!" But whatever, they're little kids. And it's funny!

I Haven't Seen the Ocean Yet

It's been a rough week, with Bry in Chicago and me in L.A. with the kids. Then on top of that, the twins locked themselves in their bedroom last night at bed time. Talk about panic for a minute there! I was able to talk them into just turning knob and opening it, but right after that I taped the part that goes into the wall! I will be replacing those doorknobs this week! First, I have to find a hardware store...or a Home Depot.

I've had time to work on some things, though I haven't been sleeping really well without him. You have to understand, though we've had our problems in the past, this is someone I spend a shitload of time with. I'm not just afraid to be on my own with 3 kids, especially in California, far away from family, I just really miss him. He and I spend time joking around and watching t.v. and even cleaning with him can be fun.

But whatever, I'm okay, trying not to overthink things, and he'll be home sooner than I know it. I have a very important business dinner this Tuesday night. Kinda nervous about it, though I've met with this person before. It's a talent manager who is interested in signing the girls, and perhaps me. So we'll see how this goes.

Ani is bugging me right now, playing Angry Birds on my Kindle while she awaits her bedtime. I send the twins to bed first, then Ani 30 minutes later. If I send all three to bed at the same time, silliness ensues. They get a little overexcited being around their big sister sometimes.

Other than the stress of being away from my husband of 7 years, I've enjoyed living here. The sun shines so bright, the people are so friendly, and I'm loving walking the girls to the playground. It's such a nice, safe, clean neighborhood. I can't wait until Bry gets back and we can go out exploring! I haven't seen the ocean yet!!!

Because now...I live in L.A.!

The view out of my living room window!

I live in L.A.! It's about time, right?! How long have I been blogging about and tweeting about moving here? We finally did it yesterday! It was a long flight, with 3 kids...a flight we almost missed...I mean, we had to literally run to the gate, and were the last people on the plane! People were complaining! Then we couldn't all find seats together! It was a horrific experience, but we figured it out, and after all of the worrying about if the girls would freak out being on a plane for the first time, my girls actually found it exciting! And the 4 hour trip really wasn't that bad considering they had a movie to watch, they had Leapsters, which is this hand-held learning game, and they had snacks. The twins even took a nap! And then Ani took a nap in the cab on the way home from LAX. It was dark by the time we got to our new neighborhood, so things didn't get really real until this morning when I woke up with all of this sunlight in my windows and seeing the houses on the hills around us.

The other great thing is being this close to my best friend, who now lives 7 minutes away, as opposed to when we lived in Chicago and she lived in the northwest suburbs and I lived in the southwest suburbs. It was a pretty long drive!

Anyway, I'm tired from the move, the flight, the agitation of all of this, but guess what?! It was so worth it! Because now...I live in L.A.!!!