Purgatory

The money is gone

And you never came

Too hot for the sun

On the northwest side

Between heaven and hell

Your splendor,

Blatantly lied,

Asleep in sadness

And attempted murder

Wipe the crusts from your eyes,

Curly-haired girl

And remaining,

In grief

And complaining

As I write to remember

Your sensitive side

And just one more mystery

inside of your shadow

Blue Poisons

My soul cries without the burning embers of your touch

I am naked, disarmed, without shelter

And with dreams of a humble smile

And to fear away from a shallow touch

Since craving your naked skin, warm body

Eyes so inviting, loving, sensitive touch

Years of dreams, finally coming to fruition

And blue poisons ruining forever

Living a terrible reality of manic indefiance

Growing vastly, running quickly to the sober light

Enduring rivers that flow at the thought of you

And tears that only appear in the dark of night

Since when do I plead for an emotional touch

I can’t withstand this grueling hour of invalidity

I will close my eyes and hear phrases, unused

And conjure spells in the back of my mind

I can’t bear to be without the sight of you

The uniqueness of your eyes and the warmth of your kiss

Your awaiting hands reaching for mine

And I pray for this moment, just a moment to exist

To show you my inner-strengths, I can achieve

But is there a point; is there shame in this?

What of the Promised Land we share in a kiss

Awaiting a kingdom, praying to exist

Or to drown in a river, an endless forever

A soul-less determination and a defining silence

A poison I will so happily die of

And a forever good-bye that’s worth a million lives

Come home to me.

Poem: One Day I Will Disagree With You

One day I will disagree with you
But not in the way that you think
And it will be huge
And I'll just blame you
And I don't care what you think
I'll cry and scream
If you know what I mean
You'll yell and laugh and call me a drama queen
I'll call your mom and tell her about you
And she'll be disappointed and scream at you too
But in the end
You know I'll die for you
But not in the way you want me to.

Poem: "Excuses for Me"

I'm just over here, sad
Lying about
Feeling lousy
With a pout
Call me a doctor
He'll just prescribe sun
And I will still choose
To lay about
With a frown
I'm one of the lucky
I'm one of the few
I'm all over smart
But I'm still blue
I revel in the drama
Fantastically strewn
Just lounging about
Here in my room.

A poem based on a film I'm writing...

This is a poem I wrote based on a screenplay I'm writing entitled "Hello Again". I'm afraid to talk too much about it, fearing someone will steal the idea, but it is about reincarnation and past lives. I just just wrote this, so I don't even have a title yet? Suggestions??

I've dreamt of lights in the sky
On fire and blazing
So beautifully, burning bright
As I did that day staring into the sun
Why do you seem so sad?
As if wishes were meaningless
You've dreamt too
Staring at the sky
Burning bright and full
With my eyes closed,
Wondering
No roof to my sky
No palace to hide
No shame to set aside
I told you my secrets
You shared yours with me
And I felt myself die
Just a little,
Melting into your arms
And eyes
As I have withered
As I have died
I'm full of dramatics
I'm full of lies
But never once did I cry
Or once did I die
Or once did I lie
While staring into your eyes.

Never Me (new poem)

I had on nothing that day

But wearing my heart on my sleeve

And trying my best

Not to think

Emotionless and pale

With grand ideas

You comforted me

And said without words

Things I longed to hear

And tearing down walls

All these walls of fear

I boast about things

But never about love

Trying to hide the disregard

And vulgar phrases

That I only think

No one wants to hear

The poor weep

I follow my shadow

It never follows me

Do I dare even speak?

When nowadays everyone comes clean

But never me

Never ending

Never me.